My Story & Healing Journey: From Depressed To In Love With My Life And Body

Hi there! My name is Becca, you can call me Bex if you want.

I am a yoga teacher, holistic health coach, traveler, and passionate dreamer dedicated to helping you create and live a life you absolutely love in a body that you completely adore!

I really struggled to create a life and body I truly love, but, with the help of many strong tools, support, inspiration, and scary leaps, I did it. I want the same for you. You deserve the best, healthiest, happiest life. If you don’t believe it, repeat that to your self over and over again until you do.

Today, I’m in love with my body, life, and journey and how perfectly imperfect it all is.

However, my life wasn’t always this way…

In 2011 I was in the hospital for my depression. That was my rock bottom.

From the outside, it may have seemed like I had it all together. I was at a top university, had good friends, a great family, high grades, dates with guys, and even my own puppy. But, I was hiding my deep pain under the smile I gave. On the inside, I felt alone, ashamed, angry, depressed, helpless, and worst of all, hopeless. I lost connection to myself, to others, and to the natural and mystical world. Something was so wrong that I didn’t want to live and I dreamt day and night of dying.

While I was in the hospital I made promise to myself: I would always choose my life over death.

I had transferred from Emory University to Virginia Polytechnic Institute and State University– I thought maybe I could’ve been the first person to successfully run away from their pain and problems, ha! But since the hospital and my promise, I had to make some serious adjustments to my priorities and how I lived. So, I moved back home to Los Angeles, California with my puppy and nestled into Venice Beach with my sister.

If I wanted to dig myself out of this black hole of depression and to see and feel the sunlight again, which I totally did, I had to get to the root of my pain, which I really didn’t want to do, but did it anyway.

I started with my body.

I basically hated every aspect of myself, from my pinky toe to the frizz on my hair to the 40 lbs of weight I wanted to lose. So, I got into a very consistent yoga practice and sweat my ass off in indoor cycling and rowing classes, pilates, hiking and running. I also started to eat healthier and eating foods that are actually food, real, whole foods with minimal ingredients that I could actually recognize and pronounce. I played around with pescatarian, vegetarian and vegan.

The thing is, you can eat all the healthy food you want, work out like crazy, have the hottest bod, and still not love yourself! So, I took up positive affirmations, (like the one I mentioned at the beginning, “I deserve the best, happiest, healthiest life”), because sometimes the mind can be slower than the body in catching up to absolutely loving it. I use affirmations as simple as, “I love myself. I love my body.” I would write them down, say them aloud maybe looking at myself in mirror, or repeat them mentally until I actually believed and felt them to be true.

Being conscious about how I was moving my body and what I was putting into it, including my thoughts, transformed my life.

It was time to go deeper.

Besides the fact that depression runs in my family, one root of my depression was a seven-year traumatic secret I was carrying: I was raped when I was 14.

I took my first yoga teacher training in ’13 – Vinyasa Yoga200 hr – and let this secret out to first my teacher, and then my parents and trusted friends. Feeling came fully back into my body and it opened up all over. The world became brighter. I felt free

This freedom allowed me to explore deep and true relationship with myself. It enabled me to explore spirituality in ways outside the religion I was born into. It even allowed me to explore the world and other types of yoga as well as career paths, fall in love, and eventually move halfway across the world to Athens, Greece for love and start my own business there.

Since then I’ve completed 695 hours of yoga teacher training in transformational hatha, therapeutic, pre/post natal, and yin yoga. I also became a certified international holistic health coach. I made my passions and my medicines my career.

Today my healing practice and medicine for joy, balance, peace, love, centering grounding, confidence and clarity includes: yoga, meditation, gratitude, affirmations writing, plenty of water and tea, time by the sea, gardening, a bio-individual, healthy, mostly home-cooked, and mostly Mediterranean (thank you Greece!) diet full of real, whole foods that taste great, time with true friends, cherishing my family, a pursuing a career I love, moving my body, chocolate, and slowing down to remember life only happens in the present.

I’m so excited our paths are crossing and I would love to connect with you!

Sending you love and support on your journey,

Becca

 

Wise Words From A Wise Woman: “Trust the journey.”

 

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